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HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.I hope you don’t forgive me

Not all the way

Leave a little
Of me there

Something you still
Can’t explain

When somebody asks
Why it ended

I know how that sounds

I know

But if you forgive me
Too easily

Then maybe
I didn’t leave much behind

I hope you don’t forgive me

I’m the one
Who said it first

“Maybe we should
Stop doing this.”

You didn’t argue

You just looked down
For a second

And said

“Okay.”

I hated
How quiet that was

I almost took it back

Instead I said

“You know
This hasn’t been good.”

You nodded

Like I hadn’t spent
The last few months

Asking you to come closer

Then getting angry
When you did

You asked me once

“What do you want
From me?”

I said

“I don’t know.”

That was true

It still is

I hope you don’t forgive me

I know
I should want that

I should want you
To wake up one day

And not feel
Anything at all

But I don’t

I want you
To still look away

When somebody
Says my name

I want there
To still be something

You can’t quite
Laugh about yet

I hate that I want that

I hope you don’t forgive me

I ask

“Do you think
You’ll hate me?”

You look up

“No.”

“Not even
For a while?”

You almost smile

“I don’t think so.”

That hurts
More than it should

So I ask
The worse question

“Will you forgive me?”

You take your time

Then—

“Probably.”

I look away

You say

“Isn’t that
What you want?”

I don’t answer

Because I can already see it

You talking about me

Without your voice
Changing

Me becoming

Someone you used
To know

I hope you don’t forgive me

Not yet

Not enough
To say my name

And feel nothing

I want you happy

I mean that

I just don’t want
Everything we were

To stop hurting
Before I’m ready

You’d think
I’d want that for you

Tonight
I don’t

I hope you don’t forgive me

You stand up

I say

“Wait.”

You stop

I don’t know
What comes next

So I say

“I’m sorry.”

You nod

“I know.”

“That’s it?”

“What else
Do you want me to say?”

I open my mouth

Nothing comes out

Then you say

“I don’t hate you.”

I look at you

“Don’t.”

“What?”

“Don’t be nice
Right now.”

You go quiet

I hope you don’t forgive me

Not tonight

I want you angry

I want you
To miss me badly

I want you
To hate how quiet

The room gets
After I leave

I want tomorrow
To hurt a little

I want my name

To still make you
Stop for a second

Not forever

I know

Just don’t make me
Easy to get over

Not yet

I hope you don’t forgive me

[Outro]
You reach
For the door

I say your name

You turn around

For a second

I almost ask you
To stay

Instead—

“Goodnight.”

You look at me

“Goodnight.”

The door closes

And I hate

That you were gentle
All the way through

*somi

Why Me

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.Why me?

I know why
I said yes

I love you

I want to marry you

It’s just

I don’t know

If I really have
Everything you’re looking for

And you look
So sure of me

Why me?

Your hands were shaking

Mine were too

You asked me

I cried

And said

“Yes.”

Just like that

You laughed
And pulled me close

I felt you breathe out

Like you’d been holding it
The whole time

I held onto you

And it hit me—

You were that happy

Because I said yes

Because it was me

I was happy

I still am

More than I know
How to say

But I kept looking
At your face

Trying to understand

How you could be
So sure

Why me?

I don’t look at myself

And see someone
This easy to choose

I get quiet
When something hurts

I say I’m fine
When I’m not

I can make
A bad day harder

I can push you away

When what I really want
Is for you to stay

You know all of that

You know me

And still

You look at me

Like choosing me
Was never the hard part

That makes me happy

More than you know

But

Why me?

Later

You’re still holding
My hand

Your thumb keeps brushing
Over the ring

I catch you smiling

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“You’re staring.”

“So are you.”

I look down

Then back at you

You say

“You’re happy, right?”

“Yeah.”

I smile

“I really am.”

And I mean it

That’s what makes
This harder to explain

I’m not scared
To marry you

I just wonder

If I can really be
Enough for you

[Pre-Chorus]
Because I know

The parts of me
I wish were easier

You know them too

And you still
Look at me

Like none of them
Changed your answer

Why me?

You’ve seen me
Lose my patience

You’ve heard me say

“I’m okay”

When we both knew
I wasn’t

You’ve stayed

When I made it harder
Than it needed to be

You know
I don’t always know

How to let
Someone love me

And still

You asked me

You chose me

You looked relieved

When I said yes

I love that

I love you

I just still wonder

Why me?

I say

“Can I ask you
Something?”

“Anything.”

I look at you

“Why me?”

You smile

I shake my head

“No

I mean it.”

You look at me
For a second

Then you say

“Because it’s you.”

I laugh
Through my tears

“That’s not an answer.”

You squeeze my hand

“It is for me.”

I look down

Then you add

“I know who
I’m choosing.”

I can’t answer that

So I just
Hold your hand tighter

Why me?

I know why
I said yes

I know why
I love you

I know why
I want the mornings

The bad days

The stupid fights

The years
We haven’t lived yet

I want all of it

With you

That part
Doesn’t scare me

It’s being loved
This much

By someone
I love this much

It’s you looking at me

Like I’m exactly
Who you wanted

And part of me
Still wants to ask

“Are you sure?”

But you are

I can see it

I still don’t know

How you can be
So sure of me

So I look at you

You look back

And I hold your hand
A little tighter

Why me?

You lift my hand

And look at the ring
Again

Then you kiss my fingers

I smile

“You’re doing it again.”

“What?”

“Looking at me
Like that.”

You laugh

“Get used to it.”

I look at you

I’m still
A little unsure

Not about you

Not about us

Just me

You squeeze my hand

I squeeze yours back

I look at the ring

Then at you

Still wondering

Still happy

*somi

I Wanted You to Be Jealous

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.I wanted you to be jealous

I said his name
And watched your face

You looked away

I kept talking

You took a drink

So I said
His name again

We’re standing
With everyone else

Someone asks me
About work

I mention him

Then I hear myself add

“He stayed late
With me again.”

That gets
Your attention

I look away
Before you do

The person in front of me
Is still talking

But I’m barely listening

I’m watching you

You catch me looking

“What?”

“Nothing.”

I turn back around

I wanted you to be jealous

Just a little

Enough to see it
On your face

When I said his name

You looked away

That should’ve
Been enough

I kept going

[Instrumental Interlude - 8 bars]
Dry electric piano, muted guitar, warm bass

Later
You ask me

“Do you like him?”

“No.”

You look at me

“Then why
Did you keep
Talking about him?”

“I don’t know.”

“You don’t know?”

“No.”

A pause

“I mean...”

I stop

[Pre-Chorus]
I start to say

“It was nothing.”

You say

“Then why are we
Still talking about it?”

I look down
At my glass

I wanted you to be jealous

I wanted you
To notice

To stop me

To ask me
Why I kept saying
His name

You say

“Of course it bothered me.”

And suddenly

I don’t know
What I wanted next

Electric piano and bass, restrained rhythmic tension

“Was I not
Giving you enough?”

“No.”

Then—

“I mean
Yes.”

You wait

I rub my thumb
Against the glass

“I don’t know
Why I did that.”

You don’t say anything

I try again

“I just...”

Nothing

I wanted you to be jealous

I could’ve
Just asked you

“Do you still want me?”

But I didn’t

I said his name instead

I watched your face

I waited
For something to change

It did

And now I’m the one

Who can’t
Look at you

We sit there
For a while

Then I say

“Do you still want me?”

You look at me

I almost say

“Forget it.”

I don’t

You take a breath

I wait

*somi

It's Okay

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.You keep saying

“It’s okay.”

“No need to rush.”

“I’ll be waiting.”

I glance at the clock

You’re already
At our usual restaurant

My phone lights up

A photo of the table

Two glasses

“I already ordered for us.”

I type back

“I’ll be done
In a little bit.”

I stare at the screen

I’m nowhere near done

Your reply comes in

“Don’t worry about it.”

When you say things like that

I just feel guilty

You’re the kind of person
Who says

“It’s okay.”

And somehow
That makes me feel worse

It’s not that
I don’t want to see you

I really do
Want to be there

That’s what’s
So frustrating

Warm Fender Rhodes, muted guitar and bass

You call

“Think you can make it?”

“Yeah.”

“How much longer?”

I look at the work

Right in front of me

Silence

Then—

“It’s okay
I’ll wait a little longer.”

“Hey...”

You go quiet

“It’s not really okay
Is it?

I’m sorry

It’s always like this.”

It would almost be easier

If you just asked

“Should I go home?”

But you wait for me

I love that about you

And somehow

That makes this
Even harder

You’re the kind of person
Who says

“It’s okay.”

But tonight

I wanted
To get this right

I almost wish
You’d told me
I was too late

I know

That’s selfish

Your kindness

Hurts a little
Too much tonight

[Outro]
I can finally
Go see you

I grab my bag
And run downstairs

I push through
The glass doors—

And there you are

Hands in your pockets

Waiting for me

You see me

And smile

I stop
For a second

And suddenly

I know exactly
Where I wanted to be

*somi

Make It Hard for Me

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.You said

“You should take it.”

Just like that

I waited
For your face to change

It didn’t

I wanted you
To make this hard for me

Then you made it
Sound so easy

I almost got mad

The offer came
This morning

New city
Better title

I read it twice

Then I called you

“That’s huge.”

“Yeah.”

“You worked for this.”

“Yeah.”

You keep talking

I don’t

Then—

“You still there?”

“I’m here.”

“When do you have
To decide?”

“Friday.”

“That’s soon.”

“Yeah.”

A pause

I wait

You don’t fill it

Make it hard for me

Say you’ll miss me

Say you hate
The thought of me leaving

No—

Don’t

If you ask me
To stay

I’ll be angry
You asked

If you tell me
To go

I’ll wonder
Why that was so easy

You say

“What am I supposed
To do with that?”

I don’t know

[Instrumental Interlude - 8 bars]
Soft piano, airy synth and warm bass

You come over
After work

The email’s still open
On my laptop

You sit beside me

“You haven’t answered?”

“No.”

“Do you want it?”

“Yes.”

You look at me

I look back
At the screen

Then—

“I think so.”

You nod

I hate the nod

You put your hand
Over mine

“I’m proud of you.”

I look away

Your hand
Stays there

I almost pull mine away

I don’t

Make it hard for me

Tell me

“I don’t want you to go.”

Then take it back

Tell me to go anyway

Tell me Sunday nights
Will feel strange

Tell me anything

That doesn’t sound
So reasonable

You stare at me

“Do you hear yourself?”

“Yeah.”

I wish I didn’t

“What are you asking me for?”

I laugh once

“I don’t know.”

“Do you want me
To ask you to stay?”

“No.”

You wait

“Maybe.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“I know.”

I look at the email

Then at you

“If I go and—”

You stop me

“No.”

“What?”

“Don’t make me
Finish that for you.”

I go quiet

Make it hard for me

You look at me
For a long time

Then you say

“I don’t want you to go.”

There

I look down

You keep going

“But I think
You should.”

“Stop.”

“What?”

I look at you

Then back
At the screen

You say my name

“I know.”

“What do you know?”

I don’t answer

The cursor’s sitting
Over “Accept.”

You ask

“What are you
Going to do?”

I move my hand
To the trackpad

Then stop

“I don’t know.”

You stay beside me

The email
Stays open

[Instrumental Outro - 8 bars, slow fade]

*somi

That's Not It

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.You said I was right

Why didn’t that
Feel right?

I waited all night
To hear you say it

Then you did

And all I could think was—

That’s not it

That’s not it

I came in ready

Every word
Still in my head

I knew what you said

I knew
Where to find it

You let me finish

Then—

“Okay
You’re right.”

I looked at you

You looked away

I kept going

One more thing

Then one more

I almost stopped

Instead I said

“But what about—”

You looked at me

I knew

You said I was right

Why didn’t that
Feel right?

I wanted it so bad

Until I had it

I kept pushing
Pushing

Waiting for something
In your face
To change

You said I was right

I still felt wrong

That’s not it

That’s not it

You got quiet

I got sharper

You weren’t fighting
With me anymore

Still
I kept going

Until you finally
Looked hurt

There

For one second

I was glad

Then you looked down

So did I

You said my name

I said

“What?”

You shook your head

“Nothing.”

This time

I didn’t ask again

You said I was right

Why didn’t that
Feel right?

I thought hearing it
Would be enough

It wasn’t

I wanted one more word

One more look

Something
That made it hurt
On your side too

Then it did

I wish
I hadn’t wanted that

“Was that
What you wanted?”

I don’t answer

You wait

“No.”

“What did you want?”

I look at you

Nothing

You look down

I almost reach
For my phone again

I don’t

You said I was right

Why didn’t that
Feel right?

I saw it
On your face—

Finally

And I hated
That for a second

I was glad

You said I was right

I don’t want
To hear it again

Not tonight

Not from you

Neither of us speaks

I reach
For your hand

You look at me

I almost pull back

I don’t

Your hand
Stays there

*somi

I Thought You'd Know

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.I thought you’d know

I thought you knew me
Well enough to hear

What I never said

I got hurt
By a rule

I only had
Inside my head

I still wish
You’d known

That’s the part
I can’t talk myself out of

I thought you’d know

At dinner

You say

“She’s been thinking
About leaving her job.”

I look at you

You keep talking

I change the subject

Outside
I finally say

“I wish you
Hadn’t told them.”

You stop

“I’m sorry.”

Then—

“I honestly thought
It was okay.”

“I know.”

I almost say

“I would’ve known.”

I don’t

You reach
For my hand

I let you

But I keep
Not saying it

I thought you’d know

I thought being
This close

Meant I could leave
Half of it unsaid

You missed it

And I hate
How much

I needed you
Not to

I still think
You should’ve known

I know
That isn’t fair

I thought you’d know

Back at my place

I ask

“Do I do that?”

“Do what?”

“Miss something
You think
I should know.”

You look at me

“Yeah.”

That comes
Too fast

“Like what?”

“You answer
For me sometimes.”

“I don’t.”

You give me a look

I stop

“Tonight?”

“Tonight.”

“When?”

“When they asked
About that restaurant.”

“You hate it.”

“I do.”

A pause

“That’s not
The point.”

I look at you

“No.”

I thought you’d know

And I thought
I knew you too

I knew your answer

So I gave it
For you

Then I hated
How fast

I started explaining

Why mine
Was different

Maybe it is

Maybe I just
Needed it to be

For another
Five minutes

I thought you’d know

And I thought I did

“Why didn’t you
Tell me?”

You look at me

“You really
Want to ask me that?”

I open my mouth

Then—

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

I look down

After a second
I ask

“Do you still think
I should’ve known?”

“Yeah.”

I nod

“You think
You should’ve known?”

“Yeah.”

Neither of us
Takes it back

[Final Chorus]
I thought you’d know

I still wish
You did

You got me wrong

I got you wrong

And somehow—

No

Not somehow

I’m still mad

You’re still annoyed

I still want you
Right here

Maybe that’s
The part

I never understood

You don’t have
To get me right

For me to want you
Next to me

I thought you’d know

I think I wanted
That to mean

You were
Just like me

After a while
You say

“You want me to go?”

“No.”

It comes out
Too fast

I look away

“I’m still annoyed.”

“I know.”

“Me too?”

“A little.”

“Fair.”

You stay
Where you are

A minute passes

Then I move
Closer

*somi

Who Did You Call First

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.Who did you call first?

I hate
That I asked

You looked at me

Like the question
Came from somewhere
You hadn’t seen

Maybe it did

I was happy for you

I still am

But—

Who did you call first?

You’re talking fast

Telling me
How your boss called

How you thought
He was joking

How your hands
Wouldn’t stop shaking

Then—

“My sister screamed
When I told her.”

I look up

“You told her already?”

“Yeah
Right after.”

“Oh.”

You stop

“What?”

“Nothing.”

You keep looking

I look away

My hand’s still
In yours

I don’t pull it back

I just wish

I hadn’t asked

Who did you call first?

I wanted my name

To be the one
Your thumb found first

No rule

You never promised

I know

I just wanted
One thing

I didn’t have
To ask for

Who did you call first?

I wish
I didn’t care

You ask

“If it were you?”

“What?”

“Same news

Who would you call?”

I laugh once

“That’s not fair.”

“It was your question.”

I look down

A few seconds

Then—

“My mom.”

You nod

“Probably.”

“Yeah.”

I hate
How easy that was

You say

“Okay.”

“Don’t.”

“Don’t what?”

“Be right.”

“I didn’t say
I was.”

“I know.”

Who did you call first?

I wanted your answer
To be me

Even when mine

Wouldn’t be you

I know
How that sounds

Don’t make me
Say it twice

I still wish
It had been me

That’s the worst part

Who did you call first?

After a while
You say

“You were the first person
I wanted to see.”

I look at you

“That’s different.”

“Better?”

“I don’t know.”

“Do you want it
To be better?”

I look down

“Yeah.”

You squeeze my hand

I let you

Who did you call first?

I still wish
You’d said my name

Even after
I said

“My mom.”

Even now

Maybe I wanted

One stupid
Little thing

I could remember

The next time
I wondered

How much
I mattered to you

You called me first

That simple

That embarrassing

I still wish
I had it

Who did you call first?

You ask

“Would it help
If I called you first
Next time?”

I look at you

“A little.”

“That’s ridiculous.”

“I know.”

You smile

I point at you

“I’m serious.”

“I know.”

I’m still
Holding your hand

*somi

I Should Hate You By Now

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.I should hate you by now

After all
You said those things to me

That night you let me
Walk home alone

I should be able
To hate you by now

I have plenty of reasons

But the hardest part is

That I still can't bring myself
To hate you

You knew exactly

What would hurt me

And yet
You said it anyway

You weren't angry

You weren't drunk

You were just tired

Restless

And you looked
Straight at me

I stood there frozen

Holding my coat
In my hand

Waiting for you
To take back

What you'd said

But you didn't

So I walked out

You didn't come after me

I told myself

"It's over."

I really meant it—

For about an hour

I should be able
To hate you by now

But I keep replaying
That night over and over—

The way you looked at me
Before you said it—

As if going back through it
Could change something

I know just how small
And miserable

You made me feel

I thought that someday

My love would turn
Into anger

But it hasn't

I should hate you by now

But I hate myself

For not being able to

Three days later

The phone rang

I let it keep ringing

I stared at your name

Until the screen went dark

It rang again

I answered

Neither of us

Said "Hello."

You said

"I'm sorry."

I wanted you to apologize

More desperately than that

Instead, I asked

"Did you mean it?"

You fell silent

For such a long time

And then you said

"No

But I knew
It would hurt you."

Those words
Hurt far more

I'm supposed
To hate you by now

You gave me
Plenty of reasons to

I know
This wasn't my fault

Even you know that

And yet
Why do I still

When you call my name

My strength
Just drains away

Why do I still

Want you to tell me

That you didn't mean it?

I'm supposed
To hate you by now

But my heart
Won't let go of you

My friends say

"Don't go back."

I answer

"I know."

They say

"There's someone better
Out there."

I know that too

That's not

What I don't understand

I understand everything

There's just one thing—

Why I still miss you

That's the only thing
I don't get

[Final Chorus]
I'm supposed
To hate you by now

Someday

Maybe I'll be able to

One morning

When I wake up

Maybe a day will come

When hearing your name

Doesn't stir my heart anymore

But tonight

I'm still angry

I'm still hurt

And somewhere deep down

Beneath those feelings

I still love you

I'm supposed
To hate you by now

But I still can't

Your last message

Says

"I'm sorry."

I haven't replied

I haven't delet

*somi

I'm Jealous of Who I Used to Be

HealingWoman358 | 장르/스타일: 애시드/퓨전 / 재즈 | 발매일: 2026.09.16

.I find myself jealous
Of the me from back then

The me captured
In that old photograph

That photo where your arm
Is wrapped around my waist

It wasn’t that she was prettier

It wasn’t that she was better, either

It’s just that she
Seemed to trust you
With all her heart

And you, too
Seemed to trust her completely

I find myself jealous
Of the me from back then

I found that photo
While looking for something else

Summer

Three years ago

That white shirt
I don’t wear anymore

Your hair
Grown out a little too long

We were standing
Outside that restaurant

Outside that place
That was a bit too fancy for us

I remember
Complaining about the food

But the me in the photo

Is smiling

Smiling from the heart

I found myself staring at her—

Staring at her
Even longer
Than I stared at you

You walked into the room
And said

“Wow
That shirt brings back memories.”

I laughed

What you didn’t notice
Was that I was remembering

The time
When I used to wear that shirt

I find myself jealous
Of the me from back then

She never asked
If you were getting bored of her

She never wondered
What kept you late at work

She simply leaned into you

As if there were nowhere else
She was meant to be

I remember her—

That version of me

I wonder when exactly
I stopped being her

You sat down next to me
On the sofa

We kept scrolling
Through the photos

A trip to the beach

Your birthday

That terrible hairstyle
You insisted suited you

You laughed

I laughed too

And then
The next photo

Me
Asleep on your shoulder

You said

“You used to sleep a lot back then—
Anywhere, really.”

I said

“Not anywhere.”

You said

“Really?”

I started to say

“I slept there
Because I felt safe.”

You kept scrolling

I couldn’t tear my eyes
Away from that photo

I find myself jealous
Of the me I used to be

It’s not because
You loved her more

But I wonder
If who I am now

Is different
From back then

Back then

She never wondered
If she was loved

She didn’t need
Any proof

She didn’t count
How often
You reached out
To hold her

She didn’t compare
Today with yesterday

I miss
How easy
It felt back then

You put down the phone

“Hey.”

I looked at you

“Are you okay?”

I nodded

Then I shook my head

You waited for me

I said

“Was I happier back then?”

You furrowed your brows

“Why?
So suddenly?”

And then

“You used to laugh louder.”

That hurt

Because it was true

I find myself jealous
Of the me I used to be

But I don’t want
To reclaim her life

I’m happy
With the life
I have now

This one

This life with you

I just want to stop
Staring at old photos

As if the me
In the picture

Knows something
I don’t

You reached out
Toward the photo

I pulled it away

“Not yet.”

You smiled
And pulled me close

“Okay.”

I looked at the photo
One more time

Then I looked at you

The you beside me now

You were still there

Holding me

*somi